New York City Day 2 & 3

Thursday I spent nearly the whole day at the American Museum of Natural Science. That place is amazing. I loved everything about it. I spent alot of time in the Amazonian People exhibit. It was quite lengthly. I chilled for awhile in the Gems section, it quiet, and dark in there. It is a great place indeed. I'd do it again.

After the museum I spent a great portion just walking around in the upper west side, near central park. It was drizzling and it was cold but there was something beautiful about it while walking in the street. So after being in awe for a bit with the upper west side, made way onto the subway and back to chamber st. I roamed around Century 21 for quite a bit. Found some really amazing dresses by Vivienne Westwood but ofcourse didn't buy. That place really has some great things for cheap though.

Going to Century 21 you're bound to see where WTC once stood. It's just like black void there. I really couldn't feel anything about it before because I didn't live here and I don't know, just didn't feel anything but now that I was near it, I could feel something. Somewhat empty.

Yesterday I took a train to Providence, Rhode Island. The ride there was beautiful after New Haven. I wish I had been driving so I can stop at these locations and just breath in the scene, and probably the fresh air it was giving off. But no I was on the train non the less. I like train rides though. I think alot, all in good manner. I read alot. and I sleep soundly.

I don't have much to say about Providence. I made it there but I didn't make it to RISD for the tour. I was quite bummed. I roamed around downtown for awhile. There was alot of school kids out, hardly any taxis, and it was warm. I'd like to have to walked further but my feet were killing me so I walked backed up to the borders I saw on my way in. Hopefully I will get much more of a feel for the town/city next time around because I need to really see RISD. That was my little adventure on Friday.

Returned to the city at night and headed straight to Queens? area to some dude's house to meet Ash. It was chill. I had a couple beers, and soon after we called it a night.

I'm still waiting for today to begin.

New York City Day 1 & 2

The flight here felt alot shorter than it probably is. I like flying out from Ft. Lauderdale, less of hassle than MIA.

I got lost on the subway the first time I got on. As I always do with any transit I first introduce myself to. But I soon got a hold of things and was ok. It's cold but I'm not exactly freezing. I don't want to jinx that though. I'm having a blast. I saw Camera Obscura lastnight at the Bell House. They were amazing as always. Their new album is going to be definitely spectacular.

My friends mama made me some oatmeal, while I watch bloomberg television. Soon I'll be going to the cake shop to get some vegan cupcakes then it's off to MoMa and Central Park. This apartment is truely amazing.

I'm out.

alone or not.

I haven't been so bored in a long time. I don't know what to do. I'll probably just make myself go to sleep.

I've been feeling like I should do this alone but at the same time I don't want to go alone. I've explored so many places alone, why am I so afraid to do so there? I went to Europe alone and I did alright. I wasn't afraid but why I am so afraid to explore a place so close to home, alone?

I just found something out and it's making me a feel a bit shitty. I don't even know why, it's nothing unfamiliar, it was the inevitable. I just hate how I don't change but then change alot. I'm almost the same person as last year, wanting to change oh so bad but only changing for the worst. I'd write more but right now is not right.

I need a beer.

"CHEAT"

"I GET VIOLENT WHEN I'M FUCKED UP
I GET SILENT WHEN I'M DRUGGED UP
WANT EXCITEMENT, DON'T GET NONE, I GO WILD

I DON'T KNOW WHAT CAN BE DONE ABOUT IT
IF YOU PLAY THE GAME YOU GET NOTHING OUT OF IT
FIND OUT FOR YOURSELF TRY BEIN' A GOODY GOODY

YOU BETTER CHEAT CHEAT
NO REASON TO PLAY FAIR
CHEAT CHEAT OR DON'T GET ANYWHERE
CHEAT CHEAT IF YOU CAN'T WIN

NOBODY KNOWS WHAT THEY ARE DOING
IT'S BEYOND YOUR CONTROL, AN' FRIDAY NIGHT'S A RUIN
IF YOU WANNA SURVIVE YOU BETTER LEARN HOW TO LIE

DON'T USE THE RULES
THEY'RE NOT FOR YOU, THEY'RE FOR THE FOOLS
AND YOU'RE A FOOL IF YOU DON'T KNOW THAT
SO USE THE RULE YOU STUPID FOOL"

Lastnight was really fun besides when I got out of control

I AM...

I am me,
and you are you
and we are nothing

Karaoke Night didn't suck but it sucked that we didn't get to sing. I love strawberry margarita's.

I'm finding some things weird. Kind of random things I'm reacting to in a late manner. I want things to change with me. I want to get into RISD or SCAD really bad. Or else I will really try to make San Francisco happen even if I'll upset my mom about it. It's all for education and myself. Also, it seems like moving is always the only way to put certain things to end that I can't do otherwise when I'm here. I'm not running away but it would be nice that when I do move, certain things will end.

NYC in 2 days and Camera Obscura in 3 days! How exciting!

Five Years is up.

You were great, You are great.

the weekend ends

It's been a good weekend. Went to an Art Gallery lastnight and checked out my friends' friends exhibit. I enjoyed most of the stuff there, especially the drawings w/ the watercolor. I thought about purchasing one actually but saw no info about it being for sale. Free wine is also a plus too. It was nice to have a slightly different night w/ the boys and ending at the resort, room hopping w/ lizzy in the end. I keep getting sick easily from the intake of the smallest amount of alcoholic beverage. I'm hating it.

I want to catch this french film at the Miami Film Festival today. So hopefully someone will be interested in catching that with me at that hour. And then I will catch Tokyo w/ Lizz later on.

I'm hungry. I'd write more, something more interesting but I'm hungry. Ciao!

Maybe Drunk

I'm kind of drunk and I'm liking it. I'm more buzzed than anything. You said we had time to talk in the car, and we did but I really how nothing important to talk about. I love watching Gilmore Girls over and over when people think I should be tired of it. Occasionally I hoped things could be one way but they are another but that's the way it is. I'm going to try to sleep. Goodnight.

Complete

I completed a lot today and I'm quite proud of myself.

Hello Morning

Rebel Without A Cause, Hard boiled eggs and hard work. What better way to begin a morning?

Townes Van Zandt

TO LIVE IS TO FLY
"Won't say I love you, babe,
Won't say I need you, babe,
But I'm gonna get you babe
And I will not do you wrong.
Living's mostly wasting time
And I'll waste my share of mine
But it never feels to good,
So let's don't take to long.
You're soft as glass
And I'm a gentle man;
We got the sky to talk about
And the earth to lie upon.


Days, up and down they come
Like rain on a congadrum
Forget most, remember some
But don't turn none away.
Everything is not enough
And nothin' is to much to bear.
Where you been is good and gone
All you keep is the getting there.


To live is to fly
Low and high,
So shake the dust off of your wings
And the sleep out of your eyes.


Goodbye to all my friends
It's time to go again
Think of all the poetry
And the pickin' down the line
I'll miss the system here
The bottom's low
And the treble's clear
But it don't pay to think to much
On things you leave behind.
I will be gone
But it won't be long
I will be a'bringin' back the melodies
And rhythm that I find.


We all got holes to fill
Them holes are all that's real.
Some fall on you like a storm,
Sometimes you dig your own.
The choice is yours to make,
Time is yours to take;
Some sail upon/dive into the sea,
Some toil upon the stone.


To live is to fly
Low and high,
So shake the dust off of your wings
And the sleep out of your eyes;


Shake the dust off of your wings
And the tears out of your eyes."

It's beautiful.

hello, wave goodbye

I sat on my couch almost all day yesterday. I puked quite a bit too. Haven't been that hungover in a long time and I don't want to be ever again. How did I get that drunk? I was having such a good time I just drank a bit too much or maybe not. Maybe since I had a long island in awhile, it just got me. I really have no idea. I'll stick to the usual four cans of beer if anything or two glasses of wine. I had a really good time non the less with so random and not so random people. We hit up Bella Rose for Psychic Tuesdays but I don't remember much of it. We then made a stop at David's apartment, ofcourse he wasn't there but the door was unlocked. It was really disturbing to be there. I was disgusted and saddened by all the needles laying around.

I'm going to go bikeride and play some calcio. So, I'm finished for now. And I'm glad to finally have pictures to put up although the ones I developed today came out all mostly shitty.

Home Again.

So, here we are, back at mom's. The drive home from Orlando could have been shorter but due to some stops, it wasn't. We talked about going to Atlanta this weekend but it just seems too soon to last minute to tell mother about. She would throw a fit of some sort, although she wouldn't make us stay. Might throw this idea at her tonight or tomorrow, if not, the plan is a bust. Soon, it will be New York. I'm afraid of how cold it will be. I don't think I can take anything below 20 degrees. I just want to see Camera Obscura again already!

While in Orlando lastnight, I visited Katherine. We hung out at her apartment and made margarita's. Went to some party that supposedly was to be a masquerade but wasn't? It was just a bunch of college students playing beer games which I'm not too into, so it was kind of lame for me. I did have a good time though but I just wanted to sleep real bad in the end.

I'm going to try to sketch now because RISD requires three sketches for the admissions process. Ugh. Here I go.

Several Hours Later

My eyes are burning. I feel like it's from lack of sleep but then I feel like I had enough hours of sleep. I don't mind sleeping in cars but waking up to 40 degree weather unexpectedly sucks. Why do we choose cars over houses we are offered to sleep at? Because we do. ha-ha. I really enjoyed lastnight. People with free beer passes are nice. I enjoy PBR and Bottingtons too much these days. We made an unplanned stop in Gainesville to pick up a friend and his friend, then we all rode off to Tallahassee for Fresh Fest. We rode back with another person in tow. Despite the rain in Talla, it was good times. Now, here we are, back in Orlando at Popeyes house. I just wanted to write.