on the way back to SF...

Well, here I am on the way back to SF from Miami. Virgin America is offering free internet until january so I thought I'd take advantage of it. Break is over and back to school it is... two more weeks and I'm done. I'm ready for it to be done. I loved being back in Miami. Enjoyed being around my friends, and doing all the fun things we do. Enjoyed being to drive just down the road to go see the nephew and niece, over-all being able to see my family. I've got no complaints except that I've caught a cold. I suppose it resulted from the night where I let Steph where my jacket while I walked around jacket-less in the cold. Oh well.... what can you do? I'm on robotussin and that chloroseptic stuff for the mouth. Anyway, I'll probably write more later or not. Slight turbulence. I'm off.

tegan & sara post....

One of my favorites from Tegan & Sara....

It's 1:04 am... must try to sleep....

home.

Back home at Mom's now. I can't sleep. I'm glad to be here though. I missed the comfort felt when I'm here. Been watching Lifetime channel trying to fall asleep but it ain't happening. Watching Sex Drive now, so funny.

morning

I'm craving bacon and pancakes. So hungry. Liz's flight got delayed. I've been up since like 6:40 am or something. I want to go to sleep but it's probably impossible by now. Maybe if I eat first.

Hearing about that Models possible suicide is crazy. Well, maybe it's not that crazy. You never know what's going on inside a persons head until something like that happens. It's just pretty sad that things like that can go undetected until it's too late.

Ah yes! Roomie just asked I want to do breakfast. Now I must get dressed.

x_x

Tonight yessss! Been awhile since I went to a show.

And I feel like a jerk but it's got to be this way for a bit. hah.

show me the way

fuck wit...

Anya Marian//Satellite Heart

"So pretty, so smart
Such a waste of a young heart!
What a pity, what a sham
What’s the matter with you, man?
Don’t you see it’s wrong, can’t you get it right?
Out of mind and outta sight
Call on all your girls, don’t forget the boys
Put a lid on all that noise!
I’m a satellite heart, lost in the dark
I’m spun out so far. You stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
I hear you’re living out of state, running in a whole new scene
They say i haven’t slept in weeks, you’re the only thing i see
I’m a satellite heart, lost in the dark
I’m spun out so far. You stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
I’m a satellite heart, lost in the dark
I’m spun out so far. You stop I start
But I’ll be true to you no matter what you do, yeah I’ll be true to you"

beautiful san francisco days

Well, today was such a good day. It was such a beautiful day to be out so I'm glad I was out. Had breakfast and bloody merry's at Reds. Went to Ferry Building and tasted some olive oil. Went Kayaking for a couple hours and had a seal come up near our kayak. Supposedly I'm a little tanned now, which I dislike but whatever, don't really notice it so why fret.

done for now.

yes

"you say the truth and go breakin all the rules"

I don't know what I feel but I felt a little drunk earlier. Mimosa's are good. That place we ate at is good... I don't even know the name! I'm of age and all but they didn't even ID me which I expected them to considering I look young and all.

When I listen to Life On Mars, I think about you. I think back to that day in my room many years ago, listening to that song and you saying the things you said.

I'm so disappointed that i didn't know broadcast played this past tuesday! like wth!

and I'm listening to Roxy Music right now. You don't even know.

done with it, maybe not

You spend so many years with another, loving them, being there for them at the worst times, going out of your way to be there for them and you think after it's all over, you will still care for one another. I'm now learning that it always doesn't work out that way. Sure, I thought all this would blow over and we would still be there one another, to some extent but I guess that's a no? Even through all the times you were being an asshole, and many other things, i stayed beside you through it all. I wasn't forced to, but I chose to despite how ungrateful you were of my friendship. Now, I'm finally moving forward. I think I don't care anymore. I don't care to be the one to pick you up when you fall down, anymore. I used to say it all the time that I would, when you had no one, even if we weren't on the greatest terms, I'd be there. But now it all seems idiotic. I want to say I'm finally done. I hope I am. Let's hope I am. Although I know days from now I'll know that I'm not done. Here's to the best.

I'm not having the greatest time tonight. I'm home, wanting to be elsewhere. I want to go listen to some music somewhere. I'm glad I'm going back to Miami. There's always someone to hang out with whether it's to a movie or an art show, or to a bar, or just hang out at home and watch a film and eat dinner. Things here are more unpredictable than not, which I guess I don't really enjoy. I like the security of home. Sure I always end up hating Miami when I'm there for too long but atleast I now know what truly matters to me, which I think will help me in respecting it more. I prefer the weeklong or weekend vacations over the months and months long away vacations.

love comes close

Somedays I'm so bored I sleep to pass the time. And sometimes I'm afraid to sleep so early so I don't wake up early.

This week is already almost over, went by so fast. There's only five weeks of school left. wow!

I want to buy new clothes but I don't have the means to. I don't know why I brought so little amount of clothes. Majority of my clothes are home, majority of the ones I did wear. All my favorite heels are at home. I guess this is what happens when you pack last minute. Atleast I'll be returning home to them soon enough. Can't wait to reunite with my bike too. I miss my bike riding days. I suppose there's alot to look forward to at home.

wish you were here

"how I wish,
how I wish you were here"

Drinking always puts me in much more deep thought than I usually already am in. I'm drinking a blue moon after having been sitting under a heater, since I got some parts of my hair dyed. It was nice and I like how the color came out.

I want to go back to Wasteland just for the photobooth. haha. Aka I'll be going there once Liz arrives. Yay! I'm just excited for her visit. Excited to see someone from home.

a long time ago

you were a long time ago
i don't question anymore

my heart,
it still goes
thump thump

but it don't speed up the way it used to
at the sight of you
anymore
©2009

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