meetings, greetings, endings

Meet Betsey Johnson on Wensday and it was the most amazing thing ever.

Finals ended today. Sweet relief! I'm happy to have passed PH.108.

Still need to finish packing. Maybe I won't sleep.

Night.

Almost the final

FinalsFinalsFinals!!! It's all almost over with, thankfully! Still stressing over finding subjects to shoot in their "environment"... I just want to pass this class, and never have to revisit it again.

Betsey Johnson meet & greet tomorrow. I plan to show up early as fuck. Hope it all goes well.

hi i'm jane

I'm 21 but I look 15.

I have idea's.... I should put them to work right now...

ranting away ye

Worked on the final exam review and studied. Now, it's time to call it a night with that. More studying to come tomorrow.

I'm really starting to follow the new 90210. I love it. I hate Dixon for lying to Silver.... her and teddy belong with each other. I want to see that happen, ha-ha. Liam and Merideth? getting back together, love.

Did three skits for french today, it was really fun. It's nice to make people laugh.

Lots of work to do tomorrow. Best get some shut eye.

no really you're awesome

Watched Fantastic Mr. Fox today and it was was fantastic, haha. Quite amusing might I add. Glad I finally watched it.

I'm still mad at borders for still not having ID or the latest Nylon in yet. haha.

Home now trying to write my SWOT analysis. I hate writing the word analysis. I can get this done in no time. Then start my extra credit paper. I probably should attempt at studying for ph.108 and french finals. Why do I have such bad study habits??

Do You Realize?

Such a good song.

bonsoir, cold go away

Going back to school after break wasn't so bad. Too many numbers for one day though. Covered numbers up to 100 in French and talked about budgeting and credit in Seminar. One too many numbers I tell ya! I'm glad I got through the day.

This cold is slowly but surely making way out. At least I hope so. I slept quite a bit after class, after some theraflu. Nose bled a bit luckily not to the extreme as it could have gone.

Contacting you today wasn't too bad. I didn't expect you to respond but you did. I was a little glad. We were friends at some point in time and I leaned on you at some point in time. I guess I never really respected that before but now I've grown thankful for those times. And I guess I never took you too serious. Being able to admit all this, almost out loud, is something else.

on the way back to SF...

Well, here I am on the way back to SF from Miami. Virgin America is offering free internet until january so I thought I'd take advantage of it. Break is over and back to school it is... two more weeks and I'm done. I'm ready for it to be done. I loved being back in Miami. Enjoyed being around my friends, and doing all the fun things we do. Enjoyed being to drive just down the road to go see the nephew and niece, over-all being able to see my family. I've got no complaints except that I've caught a cold. I suppose it resulted from the night where I let Steph where my jacket while I walked around jacket-less in the cold. Oh well.... what can you do? I'm on robotussin and that chloroseptic stuff for the mouth. Anyway, I'll probably write more later or not. Slight turbulence. I'm off.

tegan & sara post....

One of my favorites from Tegan & Sara....

It's 1:04 am... must try to sleep....

home.

Back home at Mom's now. I can't sleep. I'm glad to be here though. I missed the comfort felt when I'm here. Been watching Lifetime channel trying to fall asleep but it ain't happening. Watching Sex Drive now, so funny.

morning

I'm craving bacon and pancakes. So hungry. Liz's flight got delayed. I've been up since like 6:40 am or something. I want to go to sleep but it's probably impossible by now. Maybe if I eat first.

Hearing about that Models possible suicide is crazy. Well, maybe it's not that crazy. You never know what's going on inside a persons head until something like that happens. It's just pretty sad that things like that can go undetected until it's too late.

Ah yes! Roomie just asked I want to do breakfast. Now I must get dressed.

x_x

Tonight yessss! Been awhile since I went to a show.

And I feel like a jerk but it's got to be this way for a bit. hah.

show me the way

fuck wit...

Anya Marian//Satellite Heart

"So pretty, so smart
Such a waste of a young heart!
What a pity, what a sham
What’s the matter with you, man?
Don’t you see it’s wrong, can’t you get it right?
Out of mind and outta sight
Call on all your girls, don’t forget the boys
Put a lid on all that noise!
I’m a satellite heart, lost in the dark
I’m spun out so far. You stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
I hear you’re living out of state, running in a whole new scene
They say i haven’t slept in weeks, you’re the only thing i see
I’m a satellite heart, lost in the dark
I’m spun out so far. You stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
I’m a satellite heart, lost in the dark
I’m spun out so far. You stop I start
But I’ll be true to you no matter what you do, yeah I’ll be true to you"

beautiful san francisco days

Well, today was such a good day. It was such a beautiful day to be out so I'm glad I was out. Had breakfast and bloody merry's at Reds. Went to Ferry Building and tasted some olive oil. Went Kayaking for a couple hours and had a seal come up near our kayak. Supposedly I'm a little tanned now, which I dislike but whatever, don't really notice it so why fret.

done for now.

yes

"you say the truth and go breakin all the rules"

I don't know what I feel but I felt a little drunk earlier. Mimosa's are good. That place we ate at is good... I don't even know the name! I'm of age and all but they didn't even ID me which I expected them to considering I look young and all.

When I listen to Life On Mars, I think about you. I think back to that day in my room many years ago, listening to that song and you saying the things you said.

I'm so disappointed that i didn't know broadcast played this past tuesday! like wth!

and I'm listening to Roxy Music right now. You don't even know.

done with it, maybe not

You spend so many years with another, loving them, being there for them at the worst times, going out of your way to be there for them and you think after it's all over, you will still care for one another. I'm now learning that it always doesn't work out that way. Sure, I thought all this would blow over and we would still be there one another, to some extent but I guess that's a no? Even through all the times you were being an asshole, and many other things, i stayed beside you through it all. I wasn't forced to, but I chose to despite how ungrateful you were of my friendship. Now, I'm finally moving forward. I think I don't care anymore. I don't care to be the one to pick you up when you fall down, anymore. I used to say it all the time that I would, when you had no one, even if we weren't on the greatest terms, I'd be there. But now it all seems idiotic. I want to say I'm finally done. I hope I am. Let's hope I am. Although I know days from now I'll know that I'm not done. Here's to the best.

I'm not having the greatest time tonight. I'm home, wanting to be elsewhere. I want to go listen to some music somewhere. I'm glad I'm going back to Miami. There's always someone to hang out with whether it's to a movie or an art show, or to a bar, or just hang out at home and watch a film and eat dinner. Things here are more unpredictable than not, which I guess I don't really enjoy. I like the security of home. Sure I always end up hating Miami when I'm there for too long but atleast I now know what truly matters to me, which I think will help me in respecting it more. I prefer the weeklong or weekend vacations over the months and months long away vacations.

love comes close

Somedays I'm so bored I sleep to pass the time. And sometimes I'm afraid to sleep so early so I don't wake up early.

This week is already almost over, went by so fast. There's only five weeks of school left. wow!

I want to buy new clothes but I don't have the means to. I don't know why I brought so little amount of clothes. Majority of my clothes are home, majority of the ones I did wear. All my favorite heels are at home. I guess this is what happens when you pack last minute. Atleast I'll be returning home to them soon enough. Can't wait to reunite with my bike too. I miss my bike riding days. I suppose there's alot to look forward to at home.

wish you were here

"how I wish,
how I wish you were here"

Drinking always puts me in much more deep thought than I usually already am in. I'm drinking a blue moon after having been sitting under a heater, since I got some parts of my hair dyed. It was nice and I like how the color came out.

I want to go back to Wasteland just for the photobooth. haha. Aka I'll be going there once Liz arrives. Yay! I'm just excited for her visit. Excited to see someone from home.

a long time ago

you were a long time ago
i don't question anymore

my heart,
it still goes
thump thump

but it don't speed up the way it used to
at the sight of you
anymore
©2009

random scribblins

Say Hello To The Angels//Interpol

"I want your silent parts
The parts the birds love
I know there's such a place

I had my back turned
You didn't realize
I'm lonely

You lack the things
To which I relate
But I see no harm

Come wait, come wait, come wait
It's over.
One...two...three...do me

When I'm feeling lazy, it's probably because,
I'm saving all my energy to pick up when you move into my airspace
You move into my airspace

And something's coming over me, I see you in the doorway
I can't control the part of me that swells up when you move into my airspace
You move into my airspace

But each night, I bury my love around you...
You're linked to my innocence

This is a concept
This is a bracelet
This isn't no intervention

This isn't you yet
What you thought was such a conquest
You're hair is so pretty and red
Baby, baby you're really the best...

Can I get there this way?
I think so

We should take a trip now to see new places
I'm sick of this town
I see my face has changed.

Say hello, say hello, to the angels."

Emotionally Yours//Bob Dylan

"Come baby, find me, come baby, remind me of where I once begun.
Come baby, show me, show me you know me, tell me you're the one.
I could be learning, you could be yearning to see behind closed doors.
But I will always be emotionally yours.

Come baby, rock me, come baby, lock me into the shadows of your heart.
Come baby, teach me, come baby, reach me, let the music start.
I could be dreaming but I keep believing you're the one I'm livin' for.
And I will always be emotionally yours.

It's like my whole life never happened,
When I see you, it's as if I never had a thought.
I know this dream, it might be crazy,
But it's the only one I've got.

Come baby, shake me, come baby, take me, I would be satisfied.
Come baby, hold me, come baby, help me, my arms are open wide.
I could be unraveling wherever I'm traveling, even to foreign shores.
But I will always be emotionally yours."

holding back

i'm holding back,
is that enough?

une femme est une femme

Paranormal

Just spent the past hour or two watching Paranormal State. Roomie has them on dvd, lol. I think I probably preferred sticking to watching Mothman Prophecies but it was interesting.

Est

I've just spent the past few hours immersed in the two films above, which are 400 Blows by Francoise Truffaut and UneFemme Est Une Femme by Godard. Both were spectacular films. I especially enjoyed Femme...because the way it was filmed, it was almost moody, in a way. In one scene, music will fade in and fade out, then there be noise, and then no noise. That was interesting. Cinematography was great for both as well. I'm glad to have finally seen the films.

Specular

just for fun

PH.RANT

Honestly, all I want to do is my own photography. I don't care about being criticized but when my work is critiqued I get bored. I suppose it's because I took this course previously and failed at it. It's because all I want to do is take pictures the way I want to, the way I always have and that's going with what I feel, what I envision. Apparently I barely had any patience this afternoon. I already know what I'm doing and what I like to do but I have to follow the rules so I can pass this class and get my credit, and never have to face it again. All I want to do is learn how to print color already. B&W is down. I'll be set. All I want to do is take photography courses without credit. I suppose I should do that the next time around. Anyway. I guess the instructors comment bothered me, the comment about one of my photo's pertaining to the quality of light assignment. One of my favorites was the one I purposely made blurry but she didn't like it. I thought it still related to quality of light. And I told her straight up that I purposely made it blurry, and made it clear that I understand what I was doing but she suggested I do a non-blurry shot because that would show her that I understand my camera functions. Okay? wtf. I'm trying really hard to not give up on this class and do well at that. I cannot my feelings get the best of my effort for this course. It just sucks being restricted when you already know the majority of these things.

"I'm not trying to move fast but I can't stay slow"

Reckless

Tilly & the Wall - Reckless from Team Love on Vimeo.

blue moon full moon

Going to go see the Horrows tonight with Japanese Motors. Well, hopefully I make it. Drinking some blue moons before I go. It doesn't have that usual citrus taste that I enjoy.

chinatown outing

that show's no sign of chinatown

maybe I'll say more later...

Suspicious Minds//Elvis

Dark Blue

kind of bummed i won't see his solo show.

I have

I have a headache, it's strange actually. It doesn't hurt but it feels like when you've been swimming and accidently get water up your nose, it feels like that.

This song and I used to relate. haha

today//shooting//this

PBR

LA Bound

Well I've been in San Francisco now for a mere five days and now I'm off to LA for the weekend. I'd like to see the beach but it will probably be packed? We'll see. I'm ready for the weekend!

I haven't had enough of the beets...yet. Can't wait to see them next week along with Vivian Girls. It's great I get to see two bands together that I can't get enough of these days, haha.

On top of my weekend events I have a paper to write. I plan to start some today. School was boring at first but after first class it got better. It annoys me how my instructor is like after 2:50 I cannot help you because I don't get paid overtime. Is that's all it's about, money? Where is the passion for photography? She just annoys the fuck out of me and it's only been one class.

I love you San Francisco. See you in a couple days.

oh wow

I want to learn to develop color photo already.

Monday is fast approaching and life will be much more different than now, then last week, then last month.

Wow.

The Darjeeling Limited

I'd do this if I could...

Tracyanne

one of my favorite artist from one of my all time favorite bands.

Humans and Dog

x-pro slide film 100 ISO

This is Chicago.

Henri Cartier Bresson

You Inspire Me.

chirp chirp chirp

the new addition to the family

Jolene

balloons

Gatlinburg, Tennessee 2009

what can i say?

What can I say? Sometimes I want to burn my memories. And with some things I feel like I need to. I'd probably regret it later, so I'll just keep 'em where they belong, in a box.

I wanna experience wonderful moments, like those that feel like electric, throughout my body. I just want to feel something new instead of acting numb to it all.

Sometimes I just want something simple: love.

DaDaDa

I'm in Orlando. Rancid plays tomorrow, Yes!

I want to hear Camera Obscura live right now, their so awesome.

and I want to return to Paris already.

So here's a homage to both!

"I guess what I wanted was"

"I guess what I
wanted was
to hear

you'd stay with me always

I guess what I
wanted was
to see

those hands vowing
to never leave my own.

I guess what
I wanted was
to know

I am not loving in vein"

-jewel from the book A Night Without Armor

HANK III

Hank III show was heaps fun lastnight. I cannot even explain how much of an amazing time I had. That's all folks.

The Tree's Are All Talking

North Carolina and Mississippi

thump, bump, thump

I'm back on the typewriter, it feels great. I've been feeling a little strange, like I do occasionally. I'm happy though but this could be the beginning to one of those days, where my mood suddenly shifts, and then I'm down in the down dumps. I so hope not. I'd like to think it's the lack of sleep. Sleep I will do in an hour.

Whatever Works is a funny, good film. Woody Allen could never really disappoint me.

The music I've been listening to a lot lately, has been making me feel happy yet sad? I suppose it's the hopeless romantic in me, ha-ha. I just want to have something like those songs I've been listening to a little too much, and the thing is that I once did have something like them. I suppose I want something again but new. Although another part of me doesn't because I'm way to unstable to have anything. That's me.

Still Travelin in the Carolinas...

Camera Obscura were spectacular, amazing, wonderful, etc! They seem to only get better and better. They played a fair amount from My Maudlin Career and the previous three albums. They played so well I'm still in awe. Definitely worth the drive. I'm going to try to return for She & Him. The town isn't so bad either with their little shops and cafes.

We are currently driving through S. Carolina headed back towards Atlanta, Ga then off towards Louisiana.

More later.

Gatinburg, Tennessee

In the mountains it feels great.

I'm watching CNN.

Traveling to Carrboro, NC soon for the show.

Atlanta Bound 2009

I didn't get accepted to SCAD but I'm not bitter. I'm already working on getting back into the Academy.

We were Atlanta bound for good reason, Camera Obscura but due to some unforseen circumstances, they cancelled that day but we will be driving to NC as well to see them. I'm just so glad to be out of Florida again, to see more than hills of scraped out gravel. I'm not quite used to traveling with this group of people as to where I have to hold myself back from some habits.. Opening the curtains to awaken the others, shouting rise & shine, wake up! And all that fun stuff, haha. But it'll be alright, it is alright.

Well, I'm going to wrap it up for now.

Rant

I love clothes. I want to learn how to sew already!

No Doubt today! Oh my!

Traveling Desire

At the beginning of July hopefully I will be traveling through California. And at the end of July Jer plans to go to Amsterdam. I said I'd like to go and which I shall depending on when we return from California. I'd like to go to several other places too if I go to Amsterdam. So, depending on how plans work out I want to buy the Global EuRail pass. Travel Fever is beginning to hit me hard....

Pain in my heart 1976

I missed you alot yesterday. I missed your jokes and you're laughter. You made all of us laugh. We all miss you. You were mentioned yesterday and the things you would do to help around. You've been mentioned alot lately actually. Sometimes you wish some things didn't happen but one cannot change that.

Change'n

A change is coming. I feel it. I embrace it. All day I've felt somewhat strange, like I've just been floating through these hours. Wandering alot, fantising, hoping things will work out. I want to live a certain way, if anything almost radically. I want to see the world again in the way I saw it last year. My thoughts are moving fast and I just want to catch up.

Dear Canon,

I was starting to hate you but I finally got the grasp of your controls.... or more so the manuel. I guess it's about digital today and not film. Maybe it will be both.

Wrong Places

I suppose I've been looking in the wrong places, for a real life song in someone.....

Townes Van Zandt makes me think alot everytime I listen to him.

That Joke Isn't Funny Anymore

stop.

Stop trying to make me laugh because even via your text messages, I'm not laughing. Stop taking everything as a joke, you can only do so for so much or for so long.

Choose your friends wisely little brother.

I fucken don't understand anything about your words today. I don't even know if I want to try.

The Weekend

Well, the weekend ended well. I saw Hannah Montana for the second time and I loved it, lol. They send a message, it's inspirational. ha-ha. I can't wait to go back to art school. I want to take a course in illustration.

Mom's been in the hospital for the past couple days but returned today. It was nothing major which is a good thing. I enjoyed watching movies like clueless with her through the day. Saturday was ultimately chill with watching the nephew and us watching twilight. Then attempting to watch twilight again later that night. The only terrible thing about the night was the wallet being stolen. Fuck that shit, whoever took it.

Dave gets out of hab soon. No comment.

Dad is in jail but will be getting out in a couple days supposedly. wtf?

I'm detoxing. lol.

I'm going to hit up the library for once tomorrow and get some writing done and the advanced drivers class done. Yay for 12 points in 12 months! Only not!

Night.

IL GENIO

Il Genio are awesome. I just need to brush up on my italian to understand their lyrics. hehe.

I love my latest new jean purchase, their comfortable as fuck. I've been wearing them for the past three days.

I entered in portrait section of the scion photo contest.

xoxo,
Jane

simple kinder man..

I wish I had brought another lens but I snapped what I could.

write more later.

weird things

Things are becoming weird. I don't know whether to just go with it or just break the ice.

You're fun Las Vegas

Tiger Army's set was fucken amazing! I loved it the most when they did the Lux Interior/Cramps tribute. So so so goooood! I just have to say how today has been great. The car show was fun. Saw some great bands and bought some more dresses and such. I would love to return next year for this event, it's great.

I'll probably go to sleep soon. It's been a long day with no rest at all, all the while walking in heels. So, here I go in to dreamland.

p.s.
Wow, I'm proud of myself and

hope things will turn out fine because most of the time people don't deserve to have bad things happen to them.

Las Vegas Day 1

The Viva Las Vegas Rockabilly weekend was great. I bought a few items. Vintage and not. I have a PBR shirt now, ha-ha. It's been a great day. The plane ride here wasn't even bad, just having to wake up at five a.m. sucked.

Dinner at Texas De Brazil for Linda's 23rd birthday soooon. I should get ready.

I'm having a blast so far. I'm glad I came.

and

I haven't been responding to your text, isn't that nice? Although you sent only two, it's just funny because well you don't ever do that.

I'm sorry?

I've fucked things up, not just for you but even myself. I feel horrible about it actually. That's not me to do things like that but I got tired of being held responsible for things I just shouldn't be held accountable for. I was at my breaking point, dying inside. Enough said.

I'm getting on the road in hopefully less than an hour. I need to finish packing. Gonna stop in Sarasota on the way to Tampa. See Ash!

The four beers from lastnight left me a little sickly today but it shall pass with each gulp of water. In conclusion, lastnight was enjoyable. I'm gonna quite ranting now and pack.

Writers Block 2.0

I have the document page open, so I can write my statement of purpose, or statement of intent? And honestly I cannot write shit. The first line to begin with always gets me. Maybe using the typewriter would work better for me? It's been almost a month since I've written anything from my typewriter, all because my desk went to shit. I've been looking to by a new one but have yet to. I'll probably do so when I return from Las Vegas. A desk is quite essential. I always feel a bit more professional with one, and plus it keeps things organized unlike now, where everything is on my floor. I use my bed as a desk, which as led to me not sleeping in it. I need to straighten things up, need to straighten my life up.

I've been listening to kimya Dawson a lot lately. She's actually been inspiring to me lately. I'm listening to her now rather than being glued to the television which I have been for the past day and a half. I was stuck on the lifetime movie channel since I woke up yesterday until I fell asleep and mom kicked me out her bedroom, her lazy boy is the comfiest.

I guess I have company now so I will stop writing.

Looking for options.

I'm looking for other options besides RISD and SCAD because there is obviously the possibility I won't get accepted. I've always wanted to attend SVA but I'd need more credits for transfer without having to go with the SAT/ACT requirement which I never took! Silly me. Still looking towards City College of SF but it's kind of expensive there, as much as I'd like to go back! I'm thinking too much right now but right now is the time.

I got electrocuted today. Bendi is injured because she stupidly jumped out of the car while it was moving. WTF?!

I'm going to go watch Fast and the Furious with Lizzy, ha-ha. I watched I love you, Man 3 nights ago. That movie is hilarious. I loved it.

I'm out.

The Internet is back!

I finally have internet back up. I'm happy about that. I missed writing.

I'm craving a pepsi and for some adventure. I might just go watch Adventureland by myself then head downtown or wherever the road leads me to. I'm tired though. I should nap.

New York was heaps fun. I had alot of fun. I really can't wait to return for sure. Thursday I'll be leaving to Tampa then flying off to Las Vegas on Friday. That should be fun.

New York City Day 2 & 3

Thursday I spent nearly the whole day at the American Museum of Natural Science. That place is amazing. I loved everything about it. I spent alot of time in the Amazonian People exhibit. It was quite lengthly. I chilled for awhile in the Gems section, it quiet, and dark in there. It is a great place indeed. I'd do it again.

After the museum I spent a great portion just walking around in the upper west side, near central park. It was drizzling and it was cold but there was something beautiful about it while walking in the street. So after being in awe for a bit with the upper west side, made way onto the subway and back to chamber st. I roamed around Century 21 for quite a bit. Found some really amazing dresses by Vivienne Westwood but ofcourse didn't buy. That place really has some great things for cheap though.

Going to Century 21 you're bound to see where WTC once stood. It's just like black void there. I really couldn't feel anything about it before because I didn't live here and I don't know, just didn't feel anything but now that I was near it, I could feel something. Somewhat empty.

Yesterday I took a train to Providence, Rhode Island. The ride there was beautiful after New Haven. I wish I had been driving so I can stop at these locations and just breath in the scene, and probably the fresh air it was giving off. But no I was on the train non the less. I like train rides though. I think alot, all in good manner. I read alot. and I sleep soundly.

I don't have much to say about Providence. I made it there but I didn't make it to RISD for the tour. I was quite bummed. I roamed around downtown for awhile. There was alot of school kids out, hardly any taxis, and it was warm. I'd like to have to walked further but my feet were killing me so I walked backed up to the borders I saw on my way in. Hopefully I will get much more of a feel for the town/city next time around because I need to really see RISD. That was my little adventure on Friday.

Returned to the city at night and headed straight to Queens? area to some dude's house to meet Ash. It was chill. I had a couple beers, and soon after we called it a night.

I'm still waiting for today to begin.

New York City Day 1 & 2

The flight here felt alot shorter than it probably is. I like flying out from Ft. Lauderdale, less of hassle than MIA.

I got lost on the subway the first time I got on. As I always do with any transit I first introduce myself to. But I soon got a hold of things and was ok. It's cold but I'm not exactly freezing. I don't want to jinx that though. I'm having a blast. I saw Camera Obscura lastnight at the Bell House. They were amazing as always. Their new album is going to be definitely spectacular.

My friends mama made me some oatmeal, while I watch bloomberg television. Soon I'll be going to the cake shop to get some vegan cupcakes then it's off to MoMa and Central Park. This apartment is truely amazing.

I'm out.

alone or not.

I haven't been so bored in a long time. I don't know what to do. I'll probably just make myself go to sleep.

I've been feeling like I should do this alone but at the same time I don't want to go alone. I've explored so many places alone, why am I so afraid to do so there? I went to Europe alone and I did alright. I wasn't afraid but why I am so afraid to explore a place so close to home, alone?

I just found something out and it's making me a feel a bit shitty. I don't even know why, it's nothing unfamiliar, it was the inevitable. I just hate how I don't change but then change alot. I'm almost the same person as last year, wanting to change oh so bad but only changing for the worst. I'd write more but right now is not right.

I need a beer.

"CHEAT"

"I GET VIOLENT WHEN I'M FUCKED UP
I GET SILENT WHEN I'M DRUGGED UP
WANT EXCITEMENT, DON'T GET NONE, I GO WILD

I DON'T KNOW WHAT CAN BE DONE ABOUT IT
IF YOU PLAY THE GAME YOU GET NOTHING OUT OF IT
FIND OUT FOR YOURSELF TRY BEIN' A GOODY GOODY

YOU BETTER CHEAT CHEAT
NO REASON TO PLAY FAIR
CHEAT CHEAT OR DON'T GET ANYWHERE
CHEAT CHEAT IF YOU CAN'T WIN

NOBODY KNOWS WHAT THEY ARE DOING
IT'S BEYOND YOUR CONTROL, AN' FRIDAY NIGHT'S A RUIN
IF YOU WANNA SURVIVE YOU BETTER LEARN HOW TO LIE

DON'T USE THE RULES
THEY'RE NOT FOR YOU, THEY'RE FOR THE FOOLS
AND YOU'RE A FOOL IF YOU DON'T KNOW THAT
SO USE THE RULE YOU STUPID FOOL"

Lastnight was really fun besides when I got out of control

I AM...

I am me,
and you are you
and we are nothing

Karaoke Night didn't suck but it sucked that we didn't get to sing. I love strawberry margarita's.

I'm finding some things weird. Kind of random things I'm reacting to in a late manner. I want things to change with me. I want to get into RISD or SCAD really bad. Or else I will really try to make San Francisco happen even if I'll upset my mom about it. It's all for education and myself. Also, it seems like moving is always the only way to put certain things to end that I can't do otherwise when I'm here. I'm not running away but it would be nice that when I do move, certain things will end.

NYC in 2 days and Camera Obscura in 3 days! How exciting!

Five Years is up.

You were great, You are great.

the weekend ends

It's been a good weekend. Went to an Art Gallery lastnight and checked out my friends' friends exhibit. I enjoyed most of the stuff there, especially the drawings w/ the watercolor. I thought about purchasing one actually but saw no info about it being for sale. Free wine is also a plus too. It was nice to have a slightly different night w/ the boys and ending at the resort, room hopping w/ lizzy in the end. I keep getting sick easily from the intake of the smallest amount of alcoholic beverage. I'm hating it.

I want to catch this french film at the Miami Film Festival today. So hopefully someone will be interested in catching that with me at that hour. And then I will catch Tokyo w/ Lizz later on.

I'm hungry. I'd write more, something more interesting but I'm hungry. Ciao!

Maybe Drunk

I'm kind of drunk and I'm liking it. I'm more buzzed than anything. You said we had time to talk in the car, and we did but I really how nothing important to talk about. I love watching Gilmore Girls over and over when people think I should be tired of it. Occasionally I hoped things could be one way but they are another but that's the way it is. I'm going to try to sleep. Goodnight.

Complete

I completed a lot today and I'm quite proud of myself.

Hello Morning

Rebel Without A Cause, Hard boiled eggs and hard work. What better way to begin a morning?

Townes Van Zandt

TO LIVE IS TO FLY
"Won't say I love you, babe,
Won't say I need you, babe,
But I'm gonna get you babe
And I will not do you wrong.
Living's mostly wasting time
And I'll waste my share of mine
But it never feels to good,
So let's don't take to long.
You're soft as glass
And I'm a gentle man;
We got the sky to talk about
And the earth to lie upon.


Days, up and down they come
Like rain on a congadrum
Forget most, remember some
But don't turn none away.
Everything is not enough
And nothin' is to much to bear.
Where you been is good and gone
All you keep is the getting there.


To live is to fly
Low and high,
So shake the dust off of your wings
And the sleep out of your eyes.


Goodbye to all my friends
It's time to go again
Think of all the poetry
And the pickin' down the line
I'll miss the system here
The bottom's low
And the treble's clear
But it don't pay to think to much
On things you leave behind.
I will be gone
But it won't be long
I will be a'bringin' back the melodies
And rhythm that I find.


We all got holes to fill
Them holes are all that's real.
Some fall on you like a storm,
Sometimes you dig your own.
The choice is yours to make,
Time is yours to take;
Some sail upon/dive into the sea,
Some toil upon the stone.


To live is to fly
Low and high,
So shake the dust off of your wings
And the sleep out of your eyes;


Shake the dust off of your wings
And the tears out of your eyes."

It's beautiful.

hello, wave goodbye

I sat on my couch almost all day yesterday. I puked quite a bit too. Haven't been that hungover in a long time and I don't want to be ever again. How did I get that drunk? I was having such a good time I just drank a bit too much or maybe not. Maybe since I had a long island in awhile, it just got me. I really have no idea. I'll stick to the usual four cans of beer if anything or two glasses of wine. I had a really good time non the less with so random and not so random people. We hit up Bella Rose for Psychic Tuesdays but I don't remember much of it. We then made a stop at David's apartment, ofcourse he wasn't there but the door was unlocked. It was really disturbing to be there. I was disgusted and saddened by all the needles laying around.

I'm going to go bikeride and play some calcio. So, I'm finished for now. And I'm glad to finally have pictures to put up although the ones I developed today came out all mostly shitty.

Home Again.

So, here we are, back at mom's. The drive home from Orlando could have been shorter but due to some stops, it wasn't. We talked about going to Atlanta this weekend but it just seems too soon to last minute to tell mother about. She would throw a fit of some sort, although she wouldn't make us stay. Might throw this idea at her tonight or tomorrow, if not, the plan is a bust. Soon, it will be New York. I'm afraid of how cold it will be. I don't think I can take anything below 20 degrees. I just want to see Camera Obscura again already!

While in Orlando lastnight, I visited Katherine. We hung out at her apartment and made margarita's. Went to some party that supposedly was to be a masquerade but wasn't? It was just a bunch of college students playing beer games which I'm not too into, so it was kind of lame for me. I did have a good time though but I just wanted to sleep real bad in the end.

I'm going to try to sketch now because RISD requires three sketches for the admissions process. Ugh. Here I go.

Several Hours Later

My eyes are burning. I feel like it's from lack of sleep but then I feel like I had enough hours of sleep. I don't mind sleeping in cars but waking up to 40 degree weather unexpectedly sucks. Why do we choose cars over houses we are offered to sleep at? Because we do. ha-ha. I really enjoyed lastnight. People with free beer passes are nice. I enjoy PBR and Bottingtons too much these days. We made an unplanned stop in Gainesville to pick up a friend and his friend, then we all rode off to Tallahassee for Fresh Fest. We rode back with another person in tow. Despite the rain in Talla, it was good times. Now, here we are, back in Orlando at Popeyes house. I just wanted to write.

I'm there, I'm here, You're not Here.

I kind of just made bacon. I've never cooked bacon before because of the fact that grease pops. I hate getting burned by grease, who does? I probably won't make bacon again although I know I will even if I say so. I will be forced to because I'm a woman and woman have to do these kind of things for the men in the family, etc. ha-ha.

I'm currently in Orlando at Popeyes house. Lizzy and I will be driving over to Tallahassee for Fresh Fest. See how that flows. Gives me an opportunity to take some photographs of people.

Until next time.

March is coming

March 22nd - 5th South Beach Photomarathon. I decided I'd enter, it seems fun. 25 top winners get their work shown at some gallery, and top 3 I think get cash prizes and such. I just want to do it because it's like a scavenger hunt, you get 5 hours to take photos of five images that you are assigned. Mystery is that you don't find out anything until that day. I'm kind of excited. Although it's like $50 entry fee.

March 23rd - Leaving Miami to NYC via JetBlue.

March 27th - Return to Miami via JetBlue
Black Lips @ Churchills!

March 28th - Crystal Castles and plenty more!
..... that's the month of March for me thus far.

I'm Tired.

I spent the portion of the day at the courthouse. I'm just glad I finally got things fixed. Got my decal, got my clearance, got my license back. I'll just keep my mentality as if I don't have a license, then I won't be tempted to speed. 

Sometimes I want a boyfriend. Occasionally I miss that connection. I just don't like the guys that tend to take an interest in me. And most of the time I like being free from binds. 

Nap Tiiiime.

Chocolate Sundays

Chocolate Sundays @ Purdy Lounge is fun. I have a new love for Bottingtons.

p.s.

I wish things we're different sometimes. 

habit.

I have a problem breaking habits but I'm trying now. I'm trying to stop drinking soda, which I did for two days and broke today. I'm trying to be not as close too you but you still come over and sleep over, so we're still close. I'm trying to know what I want but I keep getting lost. 

I'm planning to go watch the sun set today. So, hopefully I'll capture something beautiful.

never do i...

I barely ever writer here, although I'd love to. I really should make an effort in doing so. 

I miss developing photo's and I miss San Francisco. I miss alot of things but I know thats all I really can do with some things, just miss them, and not take action. 

revolution between the lines

This is a drawing by Christy C. Road. I love it! I've never seen her work until I googled images for typewriter drawings. This is all I've got for now.