alone or not.

I haven't been so bored in a long time. I don't know what to do. I'll probably just make myself go to sleep.

I've been feeling like I should do this alone but at the same time I don't want to go alone. I've explored so many places alone, why am I so afraid to do so there? I went to Europe alone and I did alright. I wasn't afraid but why I am so afraid to explore a place so close to home, alone?

I just found something out and it's making me a feel a bit shitty. I don't even know why, it's nothing unfamiliar, it was the inevitable. I just hate how I don't change but then change alot. I'm almost the same person as last year, wanting to change oh so bad but only changing for the worst. I'd write more but right now is not right.

I need a beer.